Ananya Singh
SYJC-G
Dear Ananya,
“All great changes are accompanied by chaos”- Anonymous. The truest
statement ever made was this one. It will take time for you to fathom it
completely but it will seep in with time. It will become the mantra by which
you live on. A statement that you often
neglected and a statement that I now embrace with open arms. But it was
necessary for you to be a certain way for me to become a certain way.
A mirror is the best friend
and the best enemy of a person. It shows us everything that we need to see but
we only see what we want to see. Puberty is an awkward phase for every growing
girl and so was for you. The changes that occurred had left you flummoxed and
challenged. Every look in the mirror was a jab at yourself. Why are you not
pretty enough? Why are you short? When will the acne go away? When will you
feel comfortable in your own body? What’s wrong with you? The answer to all
these questions was a simple word. Nothing. Nothing was wrong with you, it was
a phase of life that you had to go through to become what I am now. Someone who
embraces herself flawlessly. It’s difficult some days but then I realize how
unique my flaws are. How those flaws and little imperfections add to my
personality, how they make me different from others and how they make me more
me.
Anger is the devil. Yes, it
is. Yours was no secret. It was visible and made you go crazy. The emotion
overpowered you more often than not. It dug its claws in you when someone went
against you, it made you furious when they didn’t listen to you. Made you
despise everything around you. It was okay. As you grow, the anger will flee.
The Ananya in retrospect now is much calmer and ambiguous. She understands
things better now. So, you don’t have to worry about it. I have changed and
grown a lot. I have embraced the good and left the devil holding me back and I
have become free.
We, humans, are creatures
of words and labels. Very few of us understand actions. We love labelling
everything and everyone around. It's no doubt you were labelled too, quite
loudly at that. Arrogant and egotistical. But you knew the truth. You were just
anxious and instead of embracing your fallbacks and facing your fears, you
chose being labelled to be a certain way because that hid your supposed flaws
from others. Humans are creatures with fault but not as scary as you thought
they were and you will understand it as time passes by. This Ananya now
understands it. You won’t believe it, but she did face her fears. She embraced
them rather. She understood her anxiety, there are still bouts of it but now
people don’t scare her. She talks to them better now, smiles at them, cracks
jokes and in all feels comfortable with it. Time will make it all better, fret
not.
Friendship is a sacred bond
between people. The only bond people choose and is not given by. There are no
obligations and limitations in this field. I know a lot of people faked it with
you, I know that you were hurt, frustrated and sad. Sad because you thought
that no one wanted to be your friend. That there was possibly something wrong
with it. There wasn’t. They were wrong for what they did, amateur growing
teenagers who needed an outlet of their own. You were good. Still are. You will
grow up to have great friends, amazing even. Those people will make you feel
comfortable the way you are. Those who feel sad for your downfalls and gleeful
for your accomplishments, who admire your courage and intellect and give you
advice when things go wrong. Those who show you the right path when they know
you might be going wrong. They will be amazing people. Your people.
Teenage years or more
specifically years of puberty often make your relations with your parents
fragile. You make impulsive decisions and they stop you from following through
with those decisions because they have been through that phase and have ended
up regretting them. It feels crowded and congested too. But you will understand
them and their actions better later on. You will learn from them. Grow with
them.
Developing one’s mentality
towards worldly things is a long process. It includes everything like music,
politics, spirituality and ideology. It comes slowly to everyone. As the world
changes the people within it will change. They are bound to. These things keep
changing over time. You are afraid of showcasing your opinion because you know
people concentrate more on passing judgements than understanding the
differences between one another and embracing them. Don’t let their words deter
you. Expressing yourself is important, it will liberate one’s mind. This Ananya
expresses herself and follows through with the plan. Nothing can stop you if
you want to prove what you believe in desperately.
In conclusion, I would like
to simply say that time will change everything and heal all wounds. You will
grow, learn and laugh through everything. You might feel sad some days as they
might not be as good as others but it will all be alright. Your belief in
yourself will get you through the harshest of calamities and hold you through
every strike of lightning. You will be the best of you, you still are. All I
want to tell you is that you had to be this so I could be this.
Ananya.
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