What makes Me feel White?

Tanisha Temghare
FYBCOM

Colours! What exactly does someone think when asked about a particular colour? Does one relate themselves to the colour or do they relate to emotions, do they experience a feeling or do they think of a person? Colours can vary from person to person and time to time. At this moment; for me, colour is a feeling and that feeling is ‘white’.

When I close my eyes and think about how I am doing or what I am as a person, the first thought that comes to my mind is ‘minimalism’ and the beauty in simplicity, similar to the colour. Every part of my life’s journey has had a resemblance with something white; like being born during the summers similar to white daisies blooming during the same season that gives a feeling of new beginnings. My teenage years, parallel to vanilla ice cream; being someone who wouldn’t try anything out of the box and being really comfortable with the way they are. Even to this date, vanilla has been my ‘safe place’ to resort to. But as I grew older, I started relating to the white clouds because they gave me a sense of freedom and the ability to reassure myself by saying that ‘the sky is the limit.’ 

In everything little thing, I do, I imagine how if white was a person, it would've done the same thing. The feeling of being one of a kind comes in me as I see a pearl. I've always been an easy-going and approachable person and never had problems making friends or talking to strangers, just like white doesn’t have a problem mixing with the other colours; be it a colour darker or lighter than white, it has neither discriminated nor taken away the essence of the colour. White leaves its mark wherever it mixes and that’s how I feel I am as a person. And after having a great time with people, when my social battery drains, I am taken back to my ‘safe place’, to ‘peace’. On the darkest of the days, when it's impossible to emit my own light, I do not hesitate to take help from others, just like the moon takes help from the sun to shine. 

White is a part of all cultures; be it mourning for some, or the beginning of life’s new phase for others, it has been through all and has the same respect for all. However, at times white things catch dust easily, and as a human, I too go through times when everything becomes ‘dusty’. But with time and effort, the ‘cleanliness’ comes back and at the end of the day, that’s what matters! The fact that I have an optimistic approach to things and I do not encourage violence or revenge is something that adds more of white to my behaviour.

White can also be plain and boring at times, just like me, but white will always be there when someone needs to feel calm and needs any support. White won't let go easily because there’s a sense of purity, a sense of mental clarity and that sets it apart from every other colour.

These are the things that make me feel like ‘White is Me and I am White.'